giving up on getting help
I hope this is the right forum.
To summarize: I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was 11. I'm 19 now. I'm stuck with abusive family in a can't leave until I'm better, can't get better until I leave type of situation. I'm Punjabi and was adopted by white Christians.
I'm ready to give up on getting professional help. I live in an area with almost no Punjabi Sikhs. I'm also American, the healthcare sucks and I can't afford it. The mental health programs towards minorities aren't focused on Asians. I told my uni counselling center I wanted culturally competent care and they assigned me to a white woman with a Korean husband who reminded me of my mom and I gave up.
I've been to several mental health professionals and each time I went, I had to give classes in Sikhi 101, Punjabi culture 101, mom's Christian sect 101 and interracial adoption 101 only to be told the same advice I've tried and failed.
I guess just drag myself through life until I die. Only reason I'm still here is hukam and my friends.
Thanks S Kaur for posting. I can't even begin to imagine the courage it has taken to post what you have been through and what you continue to go through. It sounds like you've felt really let down by people around you and I'm really sorry you've had that experience. I know of a few organisations in America that offer support. The website is https://www.mannmukti.org/seek-help
Please continue to let us know how you get on and any specific support you require. You are definitely not alone in this struggle.
I think I've seen that website before, but I just looked again and there's nothing in my area.
Hi S Kaur sorry to hear that. If theres any support we can offer do let us know.
I don't think there's anything that can be done. It's just dead ends over and over again.
But thank you.
Hi S Kaur
We often work with people who have had the same difficult experiences again and again but things can change. We always have hope and have seen change occur with the people we work with. Do you have people around you that you can trust to speak to? Equally we are here if you need to share your difficulties and to think about ways forward.
Not around me. Most, if not all, my friends are online.